Dear Diary,
The times, i got to go to the beach are view. In the Netherlands. My parents used to take me there when i was little. From my childhood untill now, their marriage is fragile. Divorse is constantly hanging above their heads as a threatening thunderstorm. Its a wonder that they recently celebrated their golden wedding.
Nowadays,
while at the beach,
I absolutely love to.simply watch the natural response of the beach, to the waves coming her way. Expecting the sea to bring nourishment. Not hoping for it, but trusting the sea to repeat his kind action untill its no longer needed. The role of the sea, (on the surface) seems to be more important. But, without the hospitality of the beach, who would be able to eat from their table? Who would be able to eat from the food the sea has brought? For sure the hungry ones who can't swim, fly and dive would stay hungry.
The beach is open to recieve, and does not do anything to prevend the nourishments from coming, and be widespread. Their aim is the same.
Kinda like a good and strong marriage. Not, that I have experienced one myself. I am more of an expert on how not to do it. But I'm witnessing some.
An important thing to witness is the fact that yes, the beach trusts the sea to bring healthy nourishments. Because the sea, for nourishments, relies on his good and trustworthy source. And the beach also knows and depends on that reliable source. Let's not forget the help of the wind, they both been given.
Seems like a marriage between three. The sea and beach with eachother. And both are married with their good and trustworthy source. All three are faithful to eachother. Like a union.
Unbreakable. A marriage is only strong when both have surrendred themselves to the same trustworthy and good source.
I've waisted a lot of years because I didn't knew that.
I even believed love just is. The concept of love being a verb, i didn't get at all. Also did not take a couple of years to get to really know the other. To also be friends. Sexual intimacy before marriage is a dangerous thing. Expecting to always be together is not something that is certain. When the relationships broke, and there has been that intimacy, i expected to be without pain and scars. But when two flesh becomes one, flesh is going to be ripped from you.
So, now my wish is that many will grasp what i didn't get.