Dear Diary,
Hii
It's midnight, morning I came back to Raipur, it's too hot here, I was sad to see that some of my plants have died, I will try to revive them tomorrow by putting some compost or fertilizer. It was my birthday and how can my birthday can be completed without making me cry for a while, Idk why I was so sad that that I couldn't hide it, my mum was worried that why I am so sad she kept asking me, I cried and sent the last note to Shikhar whatever I was feeling and asked him not to reply or call as it's a goodbye for me, but he called as he got that I am not in a good mental state, I asked him that why did he called when I asked him not to, he said that how can I leave you alone suffering like this, he asked me to share how am I feeling but at that time I was blank, he tried to make me understand things, he said that he is intentionally distancing himself when we know our families can never be on good terms, things are not gonna happen, later it will hurt more, so gradually increasing the distance, he also said that right now I am in sad mood so I am seeing the negative sides only but I will understand this, he said people do care for you it's just that sometimes someone is stuck somewhere so that can't express it. But I don't understand why can't he let me go at once, this gradual changes are really affecting me a lot.
Later I went to see the trees I planted on his birthday and as I knew they were also in dying state, I watered them, tomorrow I will try to revive them too. I have put on some weight instead of losing and it's clearly visible on my face.
My mum was worried my I am sad, so I agreed for the dinner and everything whatever makes her happy, I called Amit and invited him for the dinner one of the reason for inviting him was that he can pick and drop us as we wouldn't get cab back to home at late night, so after dinner and all we went for a drive to New Raipur.
It was an emotional roller coaster ride day.
Goodnight diary. Tomorrow I will be traveling to Chennai.