Sometimes, I just feel like my dad never love me. He always being selfish and he rarely think about other feelings. After my mom gone, thing got worse. My life is a mess. I sacrifice my social life, my energy and my time to take care of my sick father(he have stroke) which for the last 2 years I have spend to take care of him while I'm having online class. This semester is the worse because it's my final year and the next semester I will be having internship(which I hope I can find one). These past few days was a shitshow and I cried almost every night thinking the life I'm having now. Seeing other taking eid picture together with their loved one destroy me because I realized that I will never have that. Forever.