Mo's Dear Diary

It has been a little while since I updated this diary - although lots of action in the meantime On the basics, I’ve pretty much kept up with daily mediation which is helpful and has been easy to fall back into, I finished us and enjoyed and got a

I started reading "Us Reconnect with Your Partner and Build a Loving and Lasting Relationship" - somewhat a grandiose title. But immediately it gave me what I felt was a breakthrough moment. The first were a number of quotes that I think are impo

I was listening to something that really altered my perspective. When you want to change something, there is of course a series of action that are helpful in that change. But, when it relates to mental state, it needs to change to be "what would it b

I wanted to spend a moment reflecting on what "reassurance" means - and how I want to address that going forwards. One of the ways in which negative spirals / negative behaviour have "come forward" - is feeling unanchored / un-reassured. For a wh

There is a contradiction in how busy you can be, but it creates the distance to thing through other things properly. Letting other thoughts drop to the back of your mind - like a dough proving in the cupboard. There are two recent thoughts that s

I think there are different elements of a decision. There is the decision in the moment, the decision made in-haste, sadness, anger. The decision made as you finish the ice-cream to not eat ice-cream again. These are rarely lasting decisions. The dec

Dear Diary, Jiaen, I know that you will never read this. I wish I have the courage to tell you this. I love you. Thank you helping me find love again. It broke me seeing you happy with somebody else. But hey, at least you're happy. I sorry for ignor

Dear Diary,   Sometimes I feel like I'm being ignored. I feel like nobody gives a shit about me. Am I an attention whore ?  Do I not deserve any attention at all. Feeling lonely is a routine to me. I can't sleep well. I dwell on the past. I feel s

Dear Diary, Sometimes, I just feel like my dad never love me. He always being selfish and he rarely think about other feelings. After my mom gone, thing got worse. My life is a mess. I sacrifice my social life, my energy and my time to take care of