April 20, 2022

Dear Diary,

I am so anxious right now, I wish I could have someone to talk to but I am alone at home. That's why I am writing here maybe it will help. I just want to talk to someone, anything, nothing specific. Idk why I am getting back there, it literally took so much time to achieve a good mental health but these days I am back there atleast  the intensity is lesser this time.  This is the reason I avoid people,  the only reason I don't let anyone come near me. I have built a wall arround me. How can I someone to talk when I have only not replied to anyone's messages since ages. There is only person whom I talk is also busy or I should say he is always busy although he was sick and recovering and he went to hospital again today for follow up but when he will call back,  I can't wait for such long. I hate him too,   I mean I am frustrated from his long term sickness.  I am hungry too but I am not feeling like eating anything and as I have to consume less calories today coz I finished a whole tub of ice cream at night.  I just wasted the full day today coz of my stupidity, I need to finish the work too asap.