Found old entry on phone . April 20, 2022

I wanted to say that we will always have a connection no matter what . You will forever be my first love . My heart will always hold a special place for you . We have made it as long as we could , but we no longer serve a purpose for each other . We taught each other many lessons and what we do with those lessons is up to us . I can only go and try to live each day with everything and anything you have taught me . Maybe one day down the road if the stars are still aligned and god says it’s time to come back to each other then it will happen . But if not it’s ok because we shared many years together. Some good ,some bad, and some in between .  Right now it’s time for both of us to learn to grow alone . We both have paths we need to take to better ourselves ! To learn self love . To see things through our own eyes and learn from it . To wake up and smell the roses feel the sun pierce our skin and the wind flow through our hair . To take in all the little things we have missed out on all these years . There are plenty of things we can stop and question but what for ? What will it do for us besides more questions .. Many things could’ve been done differently yes but unfortunately it didn’t happen that way . And we can no longer try to make those issues better for us . It just wouldn’t matter . I want you to live and overcome your addiction just like I’m learning to overcome mine . While yes yours will be harder but I know you and I know you can find the strength to pull through . You just have to remember who you are . I know under all the anxiety and depression and pain is a fighter like no other . One who triumphs and perseveres . Rene fight for your life