Dear Diary,
"I have been hoping for a miracle to come along and change my life, everytime I am swimming in sorrow I hope for a miracle to arrive."
Hii,
I am fine but not well. Yesterday my parents realised that I like Shikhar so they thought of reconsidering him but I was still not sure although I really like him and want to be with him but there are some reasons that I am not sure about. But let it be, so my parents called his parents but situation got worsened as his parents were upset for the disappearance of my parents etc but I felt that his mother was being little egoistic, I used to like her but now I feel that they are still in the world where being groom's side is considered superior. I am seeing red flags but I am stuck between my heart and my mind.
Well the thing she said that they are seeing someone else and things have gone little far, I am quite shocked listening about it as Shikhar never mentioned it as he is always busy with work or he is on call with me but later when I spoke to him I came to know that they are not seeing anyone else and his mum said it just like this only as she thought that my papa was being rude anyways I am little disheartened and sad too coz I can see that #Shikhar_ki_Shikha is looking very impossible. And I am so scared of this arrange marriage thing as the other options my father showed me are just so so. Abd I connected with Shikhar so effortlessly and this thing was mutual as he made me like him through his efforts although I am missing those things as he is very sick these days, the flu ufffff.
I just don't know what's gonna happen next. This time I can't convience my parents again coz they are not at fault they were little upset after that call coz they had realised that I like him so they considered him. Anyways I don't know how to choose a right life partner. I just think that the right person will come automatically in my life when the time will be right. Whatever I do, whatever efforts I will make, everything will go in vain as I don't know what's stored in the destiny and things will happen as per the destiny and it's calculations. And somewhere I am thinking that I shouldn't ignore the red flags which I am having about his family. Everything else was good as I bring positive vibes with me in my house although it doesn't matter how much stressed or sad I am from inside.
I want a partner who can just hold me for hours when I am not fine. I want full care and pampering and Little love too.
Goodnight diary.