Dear Diary,
I need professional help. I can't deal with this flashbacks anymore. Flashbacks about what my abusive Ex-boyfriend did to me..I am so afraid. I hate him. I hope he will end up in jail but i'm fearing the trial. I don't what to tell everything again. In front of lawyers and the judge. My heart beats when thoughts like that hit me like a truck. I can smell his parfume. I can feel his huge hands on my neck. It feels so real. It feels like he chockes me. I am lucky to be alive but i still live a life filled with fear and panic attacks.