April 05, 2022 #159

 

Dear Diary, the world changed a lot while I wasn’t here. Changed in a bad way. 


But how am I? I’m doing good. 



I have been thinking I’m an aromatic person. I don’t feel any empathy toward romantic desires I see in romcom movies. Non of my friends ask me for love advise. Yep I know I can’t give y’all useful advise. but can I still let the sadness makes me feel sad? I want to stay by their side and listen to them when they need someone to listen to them.  But they won’t chose me. Well that’s okay…
These days I found that I have “romantic desires” but in different vector from others’. 

I want to have a picnic friend! 
I would care if the specific person of mine has another special bond with other person. I still don’t really know yet though… 
I would go to a nice picnic place with my special one and just stay there silently. Me, them, and the nature around us… the same lovely gentle breeze go through surfaces of our body…
isn’t it very romantic too? What kind of “sensuality” is this?! I’ve never heard of it. Forget about this!!

I probably find a reason why my friends call me fairy. Meh! Leave me alone!! 
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