Dear Diary,
hello wanna share this cuz a while ago i was having a mental breakdown i cannot control myself from crying. I’m sad. I do not know why. But maybe because i have this mindset where negativity and unnecessary thoughts lived in. I felt worthless and unappreciated. People won't understand and never will. I myself cannot understand me, and how about others? will they? ig nah. I want to give up because im really tired mentally. But...... I can't. i have insecurities especially about my body. People never understand that before they body shame me before they mock me about how thin I am i hate myself before them, people should know that they don't need to remind me how thin I am, how imperfect I am, how ugly i am, because I knew it before they'd notice it. They don't need to remind me that way every day, because it hurts. I know you are perfect I know you have that thing that I don't have myself. I know. So please stop. Stop. You really don't know how does it feel.You will never know how it hurts.
You are reminding me every day that
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. You yourself triggered and ruin my inner peace, and let me think about suicide. Because sometimes i cannot handle your words. Your words are much painful than i expected it to be. You don't know how does it feel when you wanted to wear something like those nice clothes but you can't because it won't suit on you, and they will make jokes on how funny you look like.