Dear Diary,
Things have been weird lately. I've been ok. Really. But I can't help feeling strange. Everything feels strange. I almost cringe at everything. I cringe at myself.
Suddenly I want attention from people. I used to hate it but why now suddenly? I want small compliments from people. I want to hear their "good" thoughts about me. I really want someone to understand me. It could be a friend or something. It is too much to ask? I'm tired of feeling bad about myself. i want to do something better. i want to be proud of myself. But things are just...hard.
Dealing with People are hard. Specially when you have high anxiety. And A lot of insecurities. Wish people would put afford to understand someone. But All they do is the opposite behavior which makes thing worse.