Personal Problem

I don't know if he truly sees me as his girlfriend.. We never talked it out. But to me, he's not. He's not my boyfriend. Although I'm beginning to see the possibility of it happening now..

I miss him.

And I'm going to miss him.

I hope this current conflict I'm facing is just another test to make me realize how he's the man I should be with and from that, feelings will evolve.. Perhaps by then, I'd realize how much I want to be with him...

The truth.. I can't tell him, shamefully, so I have to lie and come up with an excuse as to why I cannot see him for the meantime. Or I could just slowly fade myself out until there's nothing left anymore.. He'll meet someone new and he'll be fine. Or if the odds should ever be in my favour, then hopefully.. the moment I come back, it won't be too late and he'll still welcome me in his arms with his usual loving embrace.

I'm sorry I have to do this.

I'll miss you, truly.

Love,

Your Precious