Dear Diary, February is almost over. It's been emotionally draining, but the last few days I'm feeling so much relief. Losing a pet is a devastating experience and this month I'm finally able to process that grief properly after many years have passed. I don't think I'm ready to own a pet again, but I can probably foster rescued animals until they get adopted, so they are not exactly mine, I'm just caring for them until they find a suitable family. I don't know anyone in my life that would be interested to be involved in something like this except my own family and like everyone else they have enough going on in their lives. But that's fine, I'm not in a rush. When the time is right, I will have the support I need to make it happen. I have other things I'm working on right now anyway.
I'm getting used to the forum again, been spending more time there lately, found a few old friends, they don't remember me, it's been too long. There are pet owners as well, constantly talking about their pets and family. It's heart-warming, I love reading their posts, as if I can feel what they're feeling and it's not even my pet.
What a month. I'm going to have an early night.