Dear Diary, I’m in a cheap restaurant and killing time. I don’t know what do I really want to do. Just had a cup of vanilla latte. The taste reminds me of the time when I was motivated and still had a little time left. The sun is setting.
Spend almost all day playing animal crossing like everyday. Don’t know what I really want to do. Collecting virtual furnitures gives me so much temporary joy. And taking care of virtual flowers by watering virtual water. Then after couple of hours later I start feeling so stupid.
Mama Mia here I come again my my how can I…?
I love the idea that the Christian god forgives us and chances again and again whatever happens because he believes us.
I don’t have any specific named religion to belong to but this idea is what self doubting people really need.
At least for me.
But anyways I’m feeling start feeling positive and little bit blighter again even tho I don’t build things that I can prove it. But that’s okay for now. The change is definitely in my heart.
Let make it grow or at least protect to give it more time to grow the root
I’m not spend time on my bed in the dark room sadly. Now I’m playing animal crossing in my bed enough happily. Well that is true it makes me feel guilty. But I have my emotions back little by little.