Delayed Period

If I felt like a slut before, having sex with him less than 24 hours I had sex with another man just made the feeling real. 

How would I feel if I knew he fucked another girl? Hmm..

Yeah, okay. Not cool. But I'd honestly be more concerned about whether they used protection.. Although actually, having met Four, I suddenly liked Erwin better than the last time I saw him. Idk. I just… appreciated him more now. I didn't realize how sex with him feels so good until I slept with that foreign prince. I could finally look him in the eyes while we made love. Imagining him to be someone else no longer occurred.

Okay, alright. Maybe a bit. But it was only a fleeting consideration because I was suddenly reminded of how I tried to imagine him to be an anime character last time and then my thoughts the other night just went ahead and picked a character (someone from "Jujutsu Kaisen"). But I didn't go through with it, okay? I just considered it.

Gah. I wish I could just get over this whole weirdness of mine about lusting over 2-D fictional characters even when I'm already wrapped around the arms of an attractive human being because it's quite disturbing when I admit it. My Bumble's bio literally says: "Hoping to find a crush that's not an anime character." Well? Did I find one? Yeah, I did, alright. Someone who keeps jumping from country to country, that's what. Obviously, I'm still smitten about Four but it's more on the movie-like moments we had and how cute and charming he had been. Thoughts about being with him again didn't come to mind at all. Although now that I've mentioned it… Nah, I don't think I'll ever meet him again and I'm totally okay with that. Besides, the last moment we shared was a hug and it was a good way to end that wonderful (slash very nasty) night.

I wish I'll crush hard on Erwin, though. He is so sweet and affectionate. I can see myself getting attached to him now. Perhaps it's even already starting.

It's been only 14 days that my boring life doesn't seem so boring anymore and I'm already so sick and tired of talking about nothing but boys here. That's it then. I've had my fun. I should get back to my lair and hibernate for another two years.

Ah. I hope this moodswing is because I'm about to get my period. I have all the reasons to be worried cos I'm not on pills nor do Erwin and I really use condoms. So if he's fucking other people, I really hope he wraps his dick with an armour with them cos I don't know which scares me more: pregnancy or STD.

"Hello, oppa," I said when he was on top of me last Friday night and we were staring at each other.

"Hello, sweetheart. If we'd have kids, they'll have oppa eyes," he replied. I had told him about my delayed menstruation and my worries about getting pregnant.

"And they'd be short like me. Do you want your kids to be short? Are you ready to be a daddy?"

"No, not at all." He chuckled. "Are you ready to be a mommy?"

"I am more ready to be mummified than to be that."

Actually, if I'd get pregnant with him, I think it would be okay because he's kind of in the upper class. Idk. He just seems rich so I'd be in good hands. Imagine if there's no child involve, though, and he falls in love with me and his mom would be all: "Here's one million dollars. Now leave my son alone."

Hahaha. Then I'd take her hands and look deep into her eyes and say: "Thank you so much madame for making my dream come true."

I should bathe now.