i just wanna know what's the reason why. we didn't even have any interactions since i'm so awkward with him and i think him too. i didn't even made a first move like messaging him on messenger or adding him on facebook, just pure nothing. but i'm so infatuated with him that i even think that i'm inlove with him. idk if i'm inlove with him? idk, i just force myself to stop admiring him when i found out that he had a girlfriend in grade 9 (we're not classmates anymore) and eventually, i got distracted and had other crushes but not that serious as i feel with him. up until grade 10... but i still feel awkward and jittery when we crossed each other's ways.
now that we're senior high, i didn't have much info from him since he's not that active facebook user. there's nothing to stalk much. idk if he and his girlfriend are still together.
I DON'T MIND :) REALLY... I DON'T MIND... i'm just curious why on earth he keeps on entering in my mind even though i'm not intentionally thinking about him T^T. this is so fcking frustrating. i just wanna get over with him.
there's something inside me that longing for him? his vibes, his radar arghh damn....