December 26, 2022

Dear God, I feel me so cursed. I have seen the nighmare.

Why do I cry so many in the last time? So hard.

Us A from You? What do You think about him?

God, I do not read Bible before going to sleep. Last times 

Literally? I hate mother. Grandmother. Have You remembered how I have seen grandfather by Your vision? Honesly? I am afraid to live with someone like this.

God. I am such pained by canceling the social media for the 2 community.

I suppose I am not called there. Isn't it? They don't want to see me there, isn't it?

They don't need me there, isn't it?

God. They have done the program without writing my name anywhere. I thank. I am unneeded. And I am very close to saying bye.

Don't You need me in this church? What is going on?

Is it a dream?