So in the last month I have had really bad insomnia I cant sleep at all and it suck and when I do finally fall asleep it doesn't last long because my mother calls me to see if I'm awake because I didn't answer her text message asking if I am awake which you would think would be a sign that I am not awake but apparently not and I am always expected to answer my phone at 3am even if it isn't an emergency. It is currently 12:44pm and I have still not slept at all from last night and I am not at all tired and still have to go pay bills. I know I should probably go see a doctor about not being able to sleep but honestly I live in America and seeing a doctor let alone then writing you a prescription adds up very quickly so I just suffer through it and try to find ways to help me sleep at night and I am hoping that if I continue to write about things on my mind and what is bothering me will help so I wont have as much going through my head at night because that is when everything I try to not think about during the day all comes flooding through my thoughts so I am sorry for my rambling Diaries that never seem to end but this is the only way I can get things off my mind. hopefully I will be able to find a way to fall asleep at a decent hour soon.