Dear Lord, yes... She is shouting so bad. Not at me. But I fell like on me.
I am so, so exhausted from shouting of my family members. You know I hate it with all my soul, all heart. All *just everything*. I would prefer to live alone only cos of this moment. At all.
I mean. Yea, I know like that she is going... She is lating on work. But what is going on... What us happening with her heart?
I am so brokenhearted in connection with this one point.
I am happy that I finally have a person. My best friend with Whom I can talk. To Whom I can open my heart, my thoughts.
Why do I afraid if shouting? To shouting and kicking... There are similar, very clos things. And... It breaks my heart, do You know?
I have lost my communication with A, with V. Am I sad? Yea [like], definitely.
Do I believe in perfect amazing future? I would like to say yes, but...
God, my mother and others obviously in my flat. Don't know that need to ask God for Holy Spirit. Obviously inmy home are devil. He us under them. It isso bad. So mistakable. So unpleasant to feel his connections near to me.
He brokes, he brokes. And I feel this. He doesn't build. I hate him and his influence on my neighbors!
When they are under him I can't even can't say 'family', to use this word ti describe theur intentions. I think they don't control themselves. God, I hate devil. Do You know? I hate!