Dear Diary, I find myself begging God day and night. Lord please give me strength lord shield me away from evil. Take me out of this situation. No theses obstacles aren’t knew occurrences. These things are usually situations he have yield me out of time and time again. He created a way from me to escape from things of the flesh over and over again. Today I’m realizing I’m fully aware of the acts that I’m doing no one has placed mind control over me to continue sinful acts as I do. The flesh is weak I can understand but my will is truely for the benefit of my self at the moment how can I give God true glory if I’m not under his authority. True repentance is needed. How can I be a faithful servant unto God if I’m not taking my daily meditation into his word seriously I’m asking for a favor but not being obedient. It’s the audacity for me. I scream o lord help me in my prayer but never submit to his authority never obey his laws. Transformation has to occur true deliverance is needed I need to put on the armor of God and strengthen my self spiritually. Suffering is inevitable but some issues I’m revisiting for no apparent reason but disobedience.
O lord, I think you for the realization that I’m having yesterday I was going to fall into sinful acts again same as I always do but you sent an escape through your word and visuals of the book of Daniel that had me in tears. The more I read each verse the clearer the context reveal itself to be. Im grateful for the opportunity to live a holy life and I shouldn’t take it for granted. Thank you lord.