Dear Diary,
Today was pretty rough. Got in a huge fight with my mom over religion, (she’s Christian and can’t accept that I’m not). However, I handled it very well and told her I was perfectly fine with not discussing religion at all. I just hope she stops bringing it up.
On another note, im super confused about one of my friendships right now. We may have done some stuff about 2 weeks ago and now I catch myself having actual feelings for him from time to time. Or maybe im tricking myself into thinking that. Either way, I do not need a relationship rn. In a way, im incredibly glad it happened. I feel more experienced and empowered. Not saying this will be the case for anyone else, so don’t go screwing around with your friends, but for me that’s the case. I mean I do love him, and he loves me too. We just aren’t in love. I used to feel this compulsive need to be in love. I mean, for years I’ve felt that. Just looking for it desperately. But now, im trying to zone in so that my focus is entirely on my own future, and the life I will make for myself.