...

so far it has only been three... and yet it feels as though it has been an eternity.

i fell in love to fast.

i held him too close.

i let my gates open to easy.

i let down my gaurd... and trusted to let him gaurd me..

he left me.

they always do...

and yet i believed it, i believed it all to carelessly.

i have never been the one to have the happy ending...

the first one left and married the one who hated and cursed at the sound of my name.

the second one left because he did not want to push his deppression on to me...

the third was torn from me and is now happy with a new love.

and now it again i am left alone... and i dont even understand the reason... 

im done.