December 28, 2021

Dear Diary, its hurt again. 

Why is so fucking difficult to reach him?

I feel like everything that i have done is nothing and useless. 

I learn chinese because of him, got master degree in China is also because of him. 

I have do my best to make myself perfect in front of his eyes. But now I realized, I never be perfect whatever I can do or I did because I’m just a stupid girl who really in love. 

Is too deep.