Dear Diary,Colton is asleep, he was worn out so I had time to get his stuff out I know he doesn’t still believe in Santa, but it is the first without his mom, she was so into Christmas, Callie had already bought 99% of his gifts All that was left was his new saddle. I picked it up Wednesday. Callie had got some things that were just from her to him. I’m worried it is going to be hard on him when he opens them. Guess I’m probably over thinking it. I do that a lot. At least he had a good day and his mood was normal. I’m so don’t even know how to say it. I hate the holidays now, but have to make it the best it can be for that kid.