Ok, not sure about this I keep getting told find a place to vent. So guess I will give it a try. It's been a long two months since Cary passed. It's still not even sure of the words walking in the house and facing an empty room when it's bed time. Thank God for Colton I know this is harder on him. Cary took care of him with me always working are hauling cows. Your mind goes wild when you realize you are totally responsible for your kid and how little you really know about him. Colton is a rock putting up with me, my cooking, doing laundry, learning his routine that list can go on and on. I wasn't near as mature at 25yr. As he is at 13yr. It's funny, I never realized how much Carey did day to day for us.