November 24, 2022 #82

Dear Diary, I found that  affirmation videos on YouTube works better when I look the texts while I listen to the voices. I had never tried it before. I tended to close my eyes and fall asleep. 

Thanks to the affirmation video, I started today with better/light feeling. I even sang a song. Gradually, however, it faded away and I got worse anxiety compared to usual mornings. Meh

It took so much energy to keep telling me the opposite/positive things when my mind give a lot of negative self talk. I ended up with 5h nap and couldn’t soak the sun today. At least I went to walk under the moon light. I used some money at dollertree. I bought some fancy stationeries including five notebooks which cover has bear design. I gave my sister one of them but I am going to use them as todos to be a better person. 

I will write down “tidy up my room” when I wake up tomorrow. 

Okay then 

Bye, love