Dear Diary,
I truly have no idea where to begin. Feelings of frustration and resentment and hopelessness. I feel like no matter what I do, things never get better. Everything I start is doomed to fail. I was relatively fine or at least stable, mentally, for a few months but now I'm back at not feeling okay. And I really wish that my ex friend replied to my last email. We should never have been friends because it turned out to be toxic, but I don't hate you. How can you not even wish me one last "have a great life too"? Do you resent me? Did I mean nothing to you after all? I hate investing feelings in people. I want to sleep and to meditate, to read but I can't focus on anything again. I tell myself "this too shall pass" but when you're low, it feels as if you'll never ever experience positive emotions again. Heavens help me through this bad episode too.
See you another time, dear diary.
Xoxo