[ENTRY 51..✍]
Today, I'm wearing an old lover's T-shirt. I'm not being sentimental, I'm just running out of clean shirts to wear. Besides, it's been three years so wearing this doesn't give me dramatic nostalgia anymore. I still wear his scarf, too, from time to time just because I like it.
The old lover I'm talking about is Patch. I posted the letters I wrote for him here and since we're talking about him now, I guess I should share what happened after that just to give closure on the subject.
So the letters were written in the month of November, year 2018. The month that followed, December, I met an aerodrome firefighter and that guy became my friend with benefits. He served as a good distraction and by January 2019, I fully crossed the bridge towards getting over Patch.
We never talked again since our final fallout in late 2018 but this year, however, during summer, he suddenly resurfaced on my Facebook inbox. At first, I didn't recognize who it was because the name and the guy in the picture was a complete stranger to me. But when I opened the message and saw there was a previous conversation, only then I realized it was him and I was immediately filled with disgust having scrolled through ancient exchanges of sappy words of affection. Funny how you cringe at old expressed sentiments which had made you feel so happy once. I hoped he had deleted the entirety of our chat because I didn't want to have any more evidence of that crap.
His text read: "Boo, how are you?"
Boo.
How could he even still call me that?
It took me a while to discover the message because I didn't—and still don't—have Messenger nor the Facebook app. But when I finally came across it through a browser, I pretended to have erased our conversation, feigned ignorance, and replied with: "Who's this?"
He never gave a response but sent me a friend request. Until now, I haven't done anything about it. I want nothing to do with him anymore but his sudden reappearance still piqued my curiosity so I visited his new "main" account. He was still with his girlfriend and this truly had me furrow my eyebrows because he still had the audacity to call me "boo"?
When I revisited Facebook some time after, I had a new friend request notification and when I opened it, I saw Patch's request still left pending along with the others. This led me to visit his main account again and found out he was engaged. At first, I was a bit stunned, but then it had always been inevitable he'd marry that girl so I didn't feel so much about it afterwards. What annoyed me, however, was the scumbag's profile picture.
My display name on Facebook is basically Eren (and another anime character's last name) and for as long as I can remember, I had my status set up as "engaged" to Eren himself.
Now imagine my surprise and annoyance when I saw Patch's updated profile photo.
Him in an Eren Jaeger cosplay.
What.
The.
Flipping.
Fuck.
I mean, perhaps he's a big fan of "Attack on Titans", too, and considering he's got long hair now, it's convenient for him to cosplay Eren. But still, my suspecting side can't help thinking maybe it has something to do with me ..
What the hell?
How dare he do a cosplay of my husbando?!
It really made me uncomfortable because it was as if I was saying I was engaged to him, so I removed my relationship status.
He's married now.
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