11.08.21

it isnt dignosed by a doctor...

or by a therapist..

not by a counciler...

It isnt a choice

nor is is a lifestyle

It is a poisen like no other

Its pain

physically

and emotionally

and not all physicall harm is considered pain...

it is also does not mean that is has to inflicted upon one self...

physical pain can also be the achyness of the muscels as they try to sludge on another day

emtional pain is not always seen..

it is also heard by those who listen...

it is an aura that dims it's light away..

and it is what makes the mood swings unbareable

Its silence

verbally

and mentally

verbal silence is the easier shadow..

it just stays in the front of the toung to keep you from saying to much...

it is the quick smiles and the loud laughs..

as well as the tight hugs and the soft said good byes

mental silence is the heaviest form of silence...

it keeps the brain in a constant fog of white rain..

its screams the loudest, but is yet to ever be heard by others...

mental silence is the most crucial form

I hate depression, because depression likes to kick my butt... 

It is just nice to say that I made it through another day again.