Dear Diary,
Its been a pretty great day today, for the most part.
First of all, I was finally able to donate to MrBeast and Mark Rober's #TeamSeas! Well, only five dollars. I don't have that much money and I'm still saving it up for more things in the future, but hey! At least I was finally able to donate!
Second, I was able to buy an Unspeakable kazoo! (A small thing, I know. I was going to get a hoodie, but decided to get a MrBeast hoodie in a couple of weeks. Plus, I have joked WAYYY to many times about the Unspeakable Kazoo that now I HAVE to have it) I'm going to get it in a few days, so then, I'll have 20 items from the Unspeakable merch!
We got some new couches today, old and used ones. Ugh I hate them. I might sound spoiled, but I really can't help it. I have the taste of a millionaire I guess. (Well, I guess a small millionaire. I like some expensive things, but don't really want the EXPENSIVE things.)
I can't wait to move out in a few years. Move to Texas. That's a big dream for me.
My older sister pointed something out earlier. She said that next year she will be an adult, and I will be dating. Which is true, she will turn 18 in three months. That's a really crazy thought. But... I don't know about the dating part. Sure I will finally be old enough to date, but... I don't know if I want to.
I've always kept the subject "boys" private from my family and friends. It makes me uncomfortable. Yes, I do have crushes, but I don't want to talk about it because then they'll tease me or be all over my face asking questions. I hate that. That's why I don't wear my hair down, even though I want to, because I know they'll be saying things like "oh! You're wearing your hair down! You look so pretty!"
I guess I just don't like the attention.
I don't know what I'll do when I turn 16.
Should I go on those group dates and risk the readings from my family?
Or should I just wait until I move out to finally feel comfortable about it?
I mean, I definitely wouldn't mind waiting until I moving out.
I have problems.
But hey! I'm gonna be a big YouTuber!
-Thunder⚡