November 3rd, 2021 #2

I'm pretty sure my mom does not care about me but at least cares about me enough to not kick me out of the house. I told her I didn't want to apply for SSI but that really upset her and made her upset where as I just wanted to talk to her about all the stress she throws my way since my mom tends to use me as a punching bag way too much. While I don't mind listening to people rant about stuff, how she talks about her problems doesn't tell me that she wants help but instead just wants to complain about everything that bothers her. 

If I started doing that, I would probably have a 3 to 5 page essay about everyone and everything I hate in life but I don't do that as I hate complaining about stuff that don't have any immediate answer currently. 

Well I'll stop writing before I start going on a pointless tangent about my mom and I'll just play with my boyfriend to distract myself for now. I hope today will go much better as the day goes on as I mentally and physically can't handle all this stress. 

1:41 PM