Dear Journal,
its now 1:26am an im still in my thoughts.though with the peaceful sleep i was having i ended up waking up hysterical common at the moment so im sitting in my dining room writing my feelings trying to get what i feel out so i can go back to sleep.i did have the advice of getting a drug maybe to smoke but im not trying to let this all get to me that bad as much as i was around it im afraid to light up an try it.i heard it helps though but its hard to stop.an actually thats one thing im trying real hard not to do,but when your thoughts deflect beyond your control you do have to mend how you feel some how.i choose cookies an some sleepytime tea warm feeling when needing to sleep in my opinion.