Dear Diary, I also just really want a girlfriend. I'm so fucking sick of being alone. I want a girl to hold me and love me and be obsessed with me the way everyone says lesbians are. But I'll never get that. Not when most lesbians looks like fairy princes and princesses. I'm so fucking ugly. No one would want to be with me. I'm going to have to spend my whole life watching other people be happy and in love while I feel physical pain/longing over it. I'm just so fucking tired.