Small awakening ๐ค๐ป October 11, 2021
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We humans run after something or the other in life. Grades, money, power, joy, happiness etc. But there are certain group of people who think about the reason for our mere existence from time to time even though they don't get a definite answer for it.
I go through this phase sometimes as well; it lasts a couple of days or a week time. I don't really have any motivation nor any compassion while I'm in the phase. All I feel is void and vacuum within me. I end it without answering it, of course. But I think I have found something. Something that's enough to keep me going.
I came across this passage in one of the books I'm currently reading in Wattpad.
"Having a dream . . . that's a good thing," he continued, "Dreams give you something to live for. And if you don't have a dream, you start wondering whether you should bother with living, if you're not going to do anything. And once you start wondering that, you start thinking that there really isn't any reason to live. And you're not depressed, per se, but you don't bother doing anything because you know that nothing you do will amount to anything, ever."
It summarized my doubts and emotions in exact words. I do have some dreams but I did not know that they help during dark days when I'm neck-deep in self-doubt and other terible thoughts.
I tend to wither away from a dream once it comes true. At times I actually lose interest the next second the dream comes true.
It got me thinking, how will the passage apply to me. Then I did some twists and twirls to my thoughts and came up with a never-ending dream. That is to have fun everyday, to enjoy myself everyday, to keep me happy everyday and finally to be kind to myself and to others around me. I'm sure that I won't lose interest in it, ever.
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