October 07, 2021

Dear Diary,

For the past week I have spent almost 70 hours in bed, I’ve only left to eat and use the bathroom. A bed really does become more uncomfortable the more you lay in it, huh? I’m just so ashamed of my alcoholism that facing my family feels so daunting and tough, I wish I wasn’t causing them such distress but I am willing to change. As a matter of fact I’m so desperate to change and to heal, this lifestyle was cute and fun to start but now it’s hurting people I love and it simply can’t go on. I do think maybe today I will submerge from my pit and actually talk to my family, even if for ten minutes, I need to face these emotions or they’ll grow into a deeper mental cancer. 

This app feels satisfying in a way because normally when you write a diary, nobody see’s it and that’s completely fine. But for me, these entries being available anonymously online make it feel like the world is listening. 

Sincerely,

M