October 01, 2021

Today the whole house woke with stomach pain and nervous but all from different reasons. Max woke up with terrible period cramps, Nova was worried/scared about going back home and I was nervous for Nova... She will be flying across the planet to a different continent. Maybe I should explain how it came to that.. She had psychosis some months ago and in her panic ripped all the papers that she needed to stay in this country. She was also my fiancee but in her schizophrenic state she is now in love with a guy that doesn't exist in real world. Her belief is that her new husband is on a space ship and is coming to get her so they can fly wherever. She also hears voices and see 'evil fairies' and a man that sits in a chair in her room and talks. I'm explaining how she sees reality cus the ambassy and her think that it's safe to fly in this state and why that would make me nervous. She travels for 2 days, switches flights 3x and will be in a really busy environment that can trigger her stress and with her PTSD she could get disoriented or lose track of time and miss a flight. I think she needs medical help and safe place like here, not being in stress, changing location and being around her family (that are the reason for her state - they were abusing her mentally, sexually and physically) .. that can trigger her psychosis back...I can't imagine that happening to her when she travels..she couldn't get scared or lost..