August 28, 2021

 

Dear Diary,


I just realized that the pain you caused me will never go away... no matter how much I pretend I'm strong and have moved on... it will always find its way back to me. I thought if we didn't contact each other, it would be gone, so I decided to cut you off. Do you remember when I said we couldn't be friends again? I started it, not you, and I thought it would be the best way to end the pain, but I couldn't stop it. Coming back to you to help me heal was a mistake, but I reasoned that if I forgive you and become friends again, it might help me heal. You just made it worse... it was all my fault... my fault for being afraid of the dark... my fault for writing my name on WhatsApp... my fault for answering the Stanger... my fault for trusting you... my fault for wanting to not do what you did to me... Everything that occurs is my fault. I shouldn't have let you into my life... I shouldn't have let myself feel. You don't deserve me... you don't deserve to hear how I feel right now... I've realized there's no getting away from it. You let me down, and this hurt will stay with me for the rest of my life -THANKS TO YOU-

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