Dear Diary, I'm in a hopeless place, I have nowhere to run to or nowhere to hide. Is there no one I can call upon? I feel my troubles have separated me from life itself and from those I love. I do not want to do the things I do but with every good will in the world I find I'm doing those thing I really hate so much. Is there no one who can save me from such a desperate lonely 😔 state or is there a redeemer! O Spirit of God lead me to the rock wich is higher than I.