Dear Diary,
I'm dealing with a pretty hard life choice right now.
I'm a senior, which means after this year I'm gonna be on my own, responsible for myself and I'm not sure what to do with my life after.
The military has always been the obvious choice for me because I never did well in school and would likely fail college. However this "pandemic" that's been going on has backed me into a corner.
The government has been pushing this vaccine hard on people. Every where you look, everything you browse and everywhere you go is just spamming with "Get the Vaccine! Don't be part of the problem".
I don't trust the vaccine, I don't want it, and I will never get it unless its a last resort to get me something that I can't have without it which at this point is just my basic human rights.
The military will soon be forced to get the vaccine. By September its likely all military personnel will have the vaccine in their system because it's breaking their contract. In the past there have been vaccines that the military was forced into and hundreds either left, got kicked out, or was thrown in military jail for disobeying orders.
So now I have to make the choice, get the vaccine thus falling into the governments control agenda, risking my current and future health (because long term affects of the vaccine are unknown), and If anything with me goes wrong and I die, or can't take care of myself, or lose my finical stability then my loved ones will be paying for it as well. My girlfriend would lose her boyfriend because I die or I could never expect her to stay with me, I could never financially support her, and I'd just be a burden for anyone to deal with. However if everything goes right, Ill just be the average working military person, unfortunately supporting the 2021 control of the people agenda that the government is pushing.
I fear the worst because I have a lot to lose right now, she's all I got and all I live for, I'm not just making decisions for me, I'm making them for us, our future together both our health and financial stability.