Dear Diary,
I don't remember if I have said this to you earlier. But we have an occasion today. Once again.
Being a nice guy becomes difficult in a bizarre way sometimes. Even though people hurt you, insult you, cheat with you, you cannot be mad at them, you have to be nice.
Bhavna messaged, shouting, and telling me how dare you do it and who do I think I am and something something, using fuck word all over. I said I am sorry. I only said I am sorry, multiple times while she kept yelling. Had i not been a nice guy, I would say this instead -
I get it that it was your guitar and Akshay gave you with all the love and before using it, I probably should have asked you, I am sorry, I thought it wasn't a big deal that I used a guitar for a day. At least that's what I believed after all the things we had between us.
It felt really bad.
I feel like I don't have such friends, I don't have friends who yell at me for little things, going forward whether I should continue to be her friend?
Well, it's very easy to break up with people (For non-nice people). But being a nice guy, I would just think that it was my mistake, and apologize for it, and forgive her for yelling, thinking that I know she can be crazy sometimes, I have seen her before and we accept people how they are. And next time when we talk, I would act as nothing happened, you never yelled.
Another thing, so last Friday, i got a call from someone, she said to me, this is a call for background verification of someone named Aman who has worked for you for an year and a half and has applied in our company. How was aman's behavior, can you comment on it.
Being a nice guy, you cant say that Aman didn't inform us before he applied for other job (Despite asking multiple times, if he wanted anything, anything, despite keeping him as my little brother). As a nice guy, you say Aman is good. Because a nice guy thinks that, whatever happened has happened anyway, now at least let the guy be happy.
Yes, he broke my trust, but it's probably because he didn't believe in me, I wasn't good enough as a manager, and our company wasn't good enough. It could not give him what he needed.
My watchman comes and ask me that he needs money, he wasn't to go to his hometown, his niece is getting married. If i were not a nice person, i would remind him that he hasn't paid me for all the last phone recharges i did for him every month and he promised he would return. But being a nice guy, i said I'll give you tmrw and even though i am not going to office, i send the money with someone to give him.
Everyone is in need some time, so what if he keeps taking money from me, it's not that he thinks I am a fool, he just earns less and then there are situations like his son needed the operation and daily bandages. Someone has to help him. This time it's me.
Vinod calls me and ask that he hasn't received his salary, its been very long since he left the company, (If i were not a nice guy) i would say, you owe me money for the phone you bought on my credit card and promised me to return. You Didn't, maybe i can deduct my balance from your sum.
But i am a nice guy, So i call kishore and say, it's ok if my salary is delayed a little, but can we please settle his salary today.
But i have no regret that i am nice, or if people i think i am a fool.
I think i am very smart and i do things, which i feel would make me happy. Today or Tommorow.
Buenos Noches ❤️❤️❤️