Dear Diary,
I feel good but in the same time, everything is just numb.
Sometimes I just feel like it's better dying but I wanna live too.
I just hate the fact that I'm here.
Another tea for today, I just delete my close friend's number and she just realise it today.
I'm having a bad day before and we're just talking about that.
Then she told me she will reply soon because she's at work and it will be her last day before she take two weeks leave.
I just said okay take your time.
But she never reply back anymore.
And almost a week when by without any news from her.
But I saw her status with her other friend or hanging out with ppl, but she still ignore me.
And today, I just wanna be alone. And I think I should just keep on depending on myself back again.
Is it my fault to feel this way? Am I too immature?
I'm sorry that I'm a mess but I keep on feeling down when ppl do that to me.
Guess I'm gonna settle with myself again. 😂
My mom still being a bitch, and just looking for all the mistakes I made.
Sick of it.
Like I'm a piece of shit that is worthless.
Keep on going Ain!