Dear Diary,
Did it make sense if I feel happy and sad at the same time?
To be honest, I knew how I look is not the best.
And yeah,
I may not know how to do my make-up or have the nicest figure but can I still count myself worthy?
I smile at the smallest thing and cry a lot too.
Ppl often say that I look tough or I look confident.
But let face the truth, I seriously shed tears at everything.
Starting from watching videos of humanity or soldier coming back home is enough to make me tear up.
Sometimes I feel really lame and pathetic.
I may not cry Infront of you.
But I'm not strong too.
It's easier to put your smiley face than being gloomy in Infront of others.
All the time that I feel insecure because of the words ppl take as a joke or simply saying that they're giving me useful advice have torn my heart so much.
I'm sorry for not being enough to your liking. But your words hurt.
I don't care if you're my family, friends or even strangers. Just be careful with what you're saying.
A word from you can haunt ppl forever.
To me today, thank you for trying your best.
Love you.