July 25, 2021

 

Dear Diary,


Did it make sense if I feel happy and sad at the same time?


To be honest, I knew how I look is not the best. 


And yeah, 


I may not know how to do my make-up or have the nicest figure but can I still count myself worthy?


I smile at the smallest thing and cry a lot too.


Ppl often say that I look tough or I look confident.

But let face the truth, I seriously shed tears at everything.


Starting from watching videos of humanity or soldier coming back home is enough to make me tear up.


Sometimes I feel really lame and pathetic.


I may not cry Infront of you. 


But I'm not strong too. 


It's easier to put your smiley face than being gloomy in Infront of others.


All the time that I feel insecure because of the words ppl take as a joke or simply saying that they're giving me useful advice have torn my heart so much.


I'm sorry for not being enough to your liking. But your words hurt.


I don't care if you're my family, friends or even strangers. Just be careful with what you're saying.


A word from you can haunt ppl forever.


To me today, thank you for trying your best. 


Love you.








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