Dear Diary,
I knew it's been really hard. I just want you to help me to bear with it.
I'm tired but I want you to help me too. I'm really sad with everything. I don't know what's wrong with me anymore.
Am I just simply losing my mind? Everything is just a mess now. I don't know how to be happy like before anymore.
Even my mom, my family keep on body shaming me. I tried so hard to love myself. When I try to accept my life, they push me hard to the ground. I don't know how much longer I can stand.
I'm a crybaby, I knew that.
But there are literally no one that I can tell my problem to.
I love myself but don't say bad things too often to me. I'm not strong enough to deal with it.
Help me. If you can't say anything nice, just leave me alone. I'm good by myself.
I love how I smile or how I look right now. You don't have to say anything. I miss me.
It's just mind blowing when I looked back at my old photos. How much I smile back then. How genuine they are.
You don't love me? It simply fine.
I love me.
That's enough.
Just don't hurt me with your words.