Dear Diary,
The last few days have been really really hard for me. I recently found out my girlfriend has been talking to other people as if I didn't exist or even worse, telling them she hates her love life because I'm a horrible boyfriend who's been cheating on her. Which are all false claims.
Yesterday I found out she had been talking sexually with another guy, an ex of hers. She had also been leading on another guy, and talking sexually with 2 others after that.
So 4 guys.
I just learned that in January she sent her ex nudes, that she liked the person she's leading on since before we were even together and had been trying to get with him for a while during the time we were still together.
She told a guy that likes her that me and her had split up after he defended me while she was talking in a flirty way. After she told him we had split, she then started provoking sexual talk.
We're in over a year long relationship, this is very serious to me and I love her so much. I can't break up with her despite cheating because she means too much to me. I need her in my life. However I'm planning to confront her with what I know. I have screen shot evidence of all the accusations I'll make towards her and I'll wait to send them because I want to see if she'll lie or not which will help decide whether I'm leaning towards pushing to break up or not regardless of how much it'll hurt.
We're 17 going on our way to our first anniversary so it's pretty serious for me. She's living a hard life at home with really abusive parents so I was going to get us an apartment so she can move in and away from them as soon as possible. I haven't proposed but she said she wants to marry me and now to find all this out- I just am in so much pain.
I slept for 29 hours to avoid being awake. Just don't wanna be conscious anymore.