Hey baby,
I'm really sorry I couldn't come sooner, I was really busy so I'm updating the next day.
So baby yesterday was like you know awesome, it was like a little getaway after a hectic week.
The morning I went to the eye clinic where my mom works. I've got a boil on my left eye. so I consulted her doc. It was said that it should be removed and they will do it next month.
And I'm changing my spec, my sight has changed, to be frank, it's been changed for the past 2 years but due to the pandemic and since I'm staying at home I didn't compel my mom to change the specs. as I went yesterday I've chosen 2 specs and most probably I'll be changing soon.
we reached home by 3. took a small rest and we went to a shopping mall by 5.
The last time I went out for something like this was on Jan 2nd, I remember the date exactly.
So we went for a long time, it was fun.
my moms usually not the type to purchase clothes, especially from malls. she is a reseller so she either gets me like that or if any urgency from a nearby shop.
I usually get a new dress only on my birthday, like once a year. or if any of my relatives get me one. which happens only once in a blue moon.
BUT, that was not the case yesterday.
I don't know what took over me but I just started shopping, picking dresses, pants one after another. And I think I got the courage because we have another sis with us, she is currently a paying guest.
And the ironic part is my mom bought me those I selected.
I was really happy.
then we took some dresses for my brother, he is growing really fast. he needs new ones.
but the point when I was sad was when we find out the jewelry section was closed because it was closing time.
the main reason my mom wanted to go was that she wanted a clip.
A SINGLE CLIP and she couldn't get it.
However, we left later on by 9:30.
we bought dinner, where we asked for chicken tikka gravy and we got chicken tikka, I was really angry.
But it was ok.
I can say that I was happy, but not long or complete.
I had moments when I wanted to completely break down.
1. my brother literally became angry and shouted at me, when we took too long in the women's section. I get it he must have been really tired and bored. But he never gets angry at me. though he is younger, he acts like a protective elder to me. but he never becomes angry and I really wanted to cry.
2. I felt guilty that it was because I spent a lot of time buying dresses that my mom couldn't get a clip. I felt guilty, though this was the first time in my life I'm doing shopping. I get a new one only for my birthday and only one.
Maybe I really was bad yesterday.
3. we spent a lot, we've never spent that much. and I know my mom's purse is clean. she is really angry regarding that. again, I feel I'm responsible.
Question: Which was the moment when you felt so happy in the starting, but by the ending, you really wanted to cry?
My mom usually says, "If we become too happy, we must cry"
Have any of you heard that?
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