Dear Diary,
I think that I see it now, thanks to this sermon this morning. I have experienced a change and I am going through a transition? That's what I understood. What is that thing I am letting go of and moving towards? I am letting go of the person that I used to be. I am letting go of the life that I used to have, the life that I know of, and it's hard. It means that I have to start acting like the person that I want to be, but the question is who is that? Fundamentally, I am not that different. My values and who I am as a person remain similar. At the same time, it's different because I have been hiding this side of myself...well me. Since forever. So, who the hell am I? This change has led me to ask myself the answer to this question and I am really not sure how to do so because deep down maybe I am not ready to be ME. Maybe I am afraid to be me. I often reflect on the life that I used to have and want to run back to it but I am here now and want to jump into the what-ifs and what could be's. If I run back, I won't get to be where I want to be. I could hide away all I want behind the screen watching TikToks and Reels. I could stay inside and listen to podcasts and watch Netflix. BUT I know I will still be faced with the inevitable feeling of wanting more...of being more. Of being me. I NEED to be me.