Dear Diary,
I went to see the horses today and thankfully Cant wasn’t there. They just walk right up to me and I could pet them at the gate.
Mom emailed me this morning and said she is pregnant with dad. She is due in October. They are still going to remain apart but she didn’t want to keep it from me any longer.
I keep thinking to myself that I hope it is a girl, then dad can have a redo on raising a daughter.
I still can’t forget our conversation on the phone. I am hurting so bad from it.
Kemper keeps asking what is wrong and we got into a big fight last night. I’m not ready for this type of relationship because I can’t bring myself to talk to him about it. Pushing him away is easier.
He is going to be gone again this weekend so it will be easier to go about my day. It is selfish of me but I don’t have the energy for him right now.