June 15, 2021

Dear Diary,

I asked Kemper about his first time. I just want to know more about him. He said it happened at a party with a girl he had been seeing. It was in the basement living room couch. They were 15. I imagine that is how it happens with most everyone. You are young and in a relationship and both make the decision to have sex.

I asked about his last serious relationship before me and he said that she was a coke user who always was in trouble with her dealer. He said one time they were arguing and she proceeded to kick him out of his place and she doesn’t even own the place. It was always bad between them. Fighting a lot and she liked to party all the time. He says being with me is a breath of fresh air. 😊

I asked if he has ever done any hard drugs and he said no. 

He wanted to know why I was asking all of these questions and I told him I wanted to know more about him.

He said he will answer whatever I ask. 

I then asked if he ever thought about being a dad. His eyes got big and he took a deep breath and said he had not given it a lot of serious thought before. He asked me if I had to tell him anything and I said no it isn’t that, I was just curious. I am definitely not pregnant! He said that when he grows up a little and feels more adult then maybe he would be okay with leading another life in this world. I giggled at that.

He is 26, what age is “grown up”? No way do I want to have a baby but he seems so confident that I was surprised at his answer.