Dear Diary, one of my old friends is moving away. We can still keep in touch online, of course, but I know it's going to be different because we have been friends for so long, one of the few that was there when I needed someone - even only for a short time, because they were always too busy. And those years when I met them were catastrophic ones for me, I truly have no idea how I managed to survive.
I understand change is inevitable. Out with the old, in with the new. How true it is, all of my old friends now are gone, one by one they moved away and gradually we stopped contacting each other. I am now surrounded by completely new people, new reality.
I understand it's either I accept the completely new reality and surround myself with completely new friends, or I will be stuck in the past and that's just not how life is supposed to be. I've moved on from the past and closed the door before. I can do it again.
To old friends, I hope life treats you kind, thank you for your friendship, and don't think you could've done more, because you did enough. I was drowning in pain I couldn't return your friendship as I should have, it's not your fault at all. You know that what you give, always return to you, so may your life be filled with happiness with family and good cheerful friends. If you don't think of me, it's fine, it's time you think of yourself.
As always closing the door to the past is hard, but the real challenge is start living in the now, adapting to new reality and make the most out of it. They don't know me like you do, they don't know my past like you do, which could be a good thing. But it's still nerve wrecking. I'm totally not ready for them and yet they are so accepting of me, as if they've known me a long time. So I can't ruin this. This new reality, new people, there is so much light in it. I should pretend that I am comfortable with so much light, soon I hope I will get used to it. Like everything else, it's not going to last forever. What is good never lasts long.
I love you old friends, you know who you are. I hope I will be a much better friend to the new friends I have now.