Dear Diary, it's raining. There is something about rain that calms me down. It didn't use to have that effect on me. Not that I hated it, I just didn't like the feeling of wet clothes on my skin and I didn't like my hair wet after I styled it. Those things don't bother me anymore for whatever reason. I still wouldn't want to stand in the rain for the sake of getting wet, that's what shower is for. I think it's because the things that used to matter to me, don't matter that much anymore. For example I don't style my hair as much, I am not picky with what I am wearing when I go out anymore.
Now I feel differently about rain. Watching it rains outside, is like watching some kind of cleansing going on and quenching thirst of the soil at the same time. When it pours on me, it feels like cleansing from the heavens, especially when rainbow comes out after that. Weird, I didn't use to think that way about rain, nor rainbow for that matter. Maybe because I am more appreciative now, of the things I used to take for granted. No matter what I have gone through or am going through, I am still alive, I can still heal from it. I need to appreciate that.